Pins and Needles

Ok, so today I am nervous as heck!!! My man called my dad to have a little “get to know you” talk. Basically what he is going to say is something more down the lines of “what is it going to take for you to accept me being in your daughter’s life?” So of course I am having a little trouble focusing on my work today.

See the problem is that my dad is a very controlling figure in my life. He has never liked any guy that I have ever introduced him to. I think he can’t stand the idea of possibly being replaced in my life. It is like he is looking for all of the imperfections in everyone, and fixating on these perceived issues until they are the only thing that defines that person. I am really worried about this, because my father is very important to me, but I am going to spend the rest of my life with my man. It would make it a lot easier on me if they have a good relationship.

I hate how my father seems to try and make me chose between them. I am stubborn as heck, and can’t stand to be forced to choose between two people that I love. Right now all that my father is doing is driving a wedge between us. I guess that I am just hoping that tonight will make a difference in his attitude. He needs to learn to respect my decisions, and quit trying to slyly manipulate me. He keeps making all of these comments that are so loaded with insinuations that I try to avoid talking with him now. Every time that he opens his mouth he manages to piss me off. I guess that he thinks that I am too stupid to pick up on what he is insinuating.

Anyways, I guess that I should go before I get myself more worked up!!!

-JT