Lonely Again!
So, this morning I had to drive my man to the airport again!!! I think that it is kinda sad that we now have a routine for this!! We park and I walk him in to check his luggage and get his boarding pass, and then we walk back out to the car, sit and talk and kiss, then he watches me drive off before going in to stand in line for security.
It was easier to watch him leave this time since he will only be gone for two weeks. He is off to the east coast again, I am not sure exactly what he will be doing this time, but he already has his return flight, so it is simply a countdown until he returns. I know that doesn't insure there won't be a hiccup, but it makes it much less likely.
I have loved the months that we have had together. He keeps trying to talk me into a wedding on a beach in Tahoe, now without family, and all of the headaches that he perceives in trying to get my parents to approve of him. Unfortunately, my family is very old fashioned, and they have this perception of how my life should be lived, without understanding, that I don't want their world. I have my own ideas about the life that I want, and he fits perfectly into that. They want me to be comfortable with lots of nice material possessions, all of the class and culture that they raised me in. I want a nice quiet life with the comforts of a peaceful life, without worrying about appearances, correct social status, or nice possessions. I want a life focused around my family, not my job. I don't want to take my daughter snowboarding and have to sit a few runs out to take a business call.
So now that I have lots of time to burn without him here, I am trying to figure out what I am going to do. Definitely going to take all of the crap out of my closet and get rid of stuff that I don't need and see if I can organize my storage space better. Since I just redecorated my new place, I need to get rid of the old crap, you know that wonderful college clutter-whatever was free-no matter what condition it was in-who cares if it matches-mentality.
One of my best friends is taking off for England for 9 months soon, so I am going to throw a dinner for some of my closest friends before she leaves. I am curious what I am going to do without her, since she is one of the few people that I still hang out with. It has been hard making new friends; it has been hard even just keeping good relationships with old friends. I just don't have the energy for some of the drama that a lot of them bring into my life. Incase you didn't notice...I have enough drama already, Thank you very much!!!
Anyways, I got up early to go to the airport, I am so tired. (For those of you who don't know me very well, I ramble when I am tired) As you can tell from the above, I am VERY tired!!! I think I actually thought that all of you would want to know about my cleaning plans!!! Quick...someone get me a pillow...I need some serious shuteye!!!
-JT
PS. I miss you already baby!! I am craving cuddling up to you and letting you rub my head while I fall asleep. It would not take me long at all right now...I might fall asleep as quickly as you usually do!!! Your pillow will be waiting for you when you return. Stay safe and hurry home to me!!!
It was easier to watch him leave this time since he will only be gone for two weeks. He is off to the east coast again, I am not sure exactly what he will be doing this time, but he already has his return flight, so it is simply a countdown until he returns. I know that doesn't insure there won't be a hiccup, but it makes it much less likely.
I have loved the months that we have had together. He keeps trying to talk me into a wedding on a beach in Tahoe, now without family, and all of the headaches that he perceives in trying to get my parents to approve of him. Unfortunately, my family is very old fashioned, and they have this perception of how my life should be lived, without understanding, that I don't want their world. I have my own ideas about the life that I want, and he fits perfectly into that. They want me to be comfortable with lots of nice material possessions, all of the class and culture that they raised me in. I want a nice quiet life with the comforts of a peaceful life, without worrying about appearances, correct social status, or nice possessions. I want a life focused around my family, not my job. I don't want to take my daughter snowboarding and have to sit a few runs out to take a business call.
So now that I have lots of time to burn without him here, I am trying to figure out what I am going to do. Definitely going to take all of the crap out of my closet and get rid of stuff that I don't need and see if I can organize my storage space better. Since I just redecorated my new place, I need to get rid of the old crap, you know that wonderful college clutter-whatever was free-no matter what condition it was in-who cares if it matches-mentality.
One of my best friends is taking off for England for 9 months soon, so I am going to throw a dinner for some of my closest friends before she leaves. I am curious what I am going to do without her, since she is one of the few people that I still hang out with. It has been hard making new friends; it has been hard even just keeping good relationships with old friends. I just don't have the energy for some of the drama that a lot of them bring into my life. Incase you didn't notice...I have enough drama already, Thank you very much!!!
Anyways, I got up early to go to the airport, I am so tired. (For those of you who don't know me very well, I ramble when I am tired) As you can tell from the above, I am VERY tired!!! I think I actually thought that all of you would want to know about my cleaning plans!!! Quick...someone get me a pillow...I need some serious shuteye!!!
-JT
PS. I miss you already baby!! I am craving cuddling up to you and letting you rub my head while I fall asleep. It would not take me long at all right now...I might fall asleep as quickly as you usually do!!! Your pillow will be waiting for you when you return. Stay safe and hurry home to me!!!
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