Time
A little under a year ago, a military man walked into my life, and I had no idea what he was going to do to my life!! As we got to know each other better, he would tell me time and again that he didn't want to put me through the rough life that surrounds the military. He didn't want me to have a man who could not be there for me because of his job. He is one of the many who joined the military after September 11th, he felt that Americans should never have to witness what happened ever again, and if he could give his life to prevent something like that from happening, then it was a small price to pay.
I am not one of the Americans who can quickly forget what happened on that day, or will question why we are in Iraq. Someone with a lot more information than I have made that decision, and sometimes the best defensive is a good offence.
I don't feel that all because someone chose to make a sacrifice to protect their country, they should be denied a life. As I told him, and I am now telling every military man who questions why they are dragging someone they love through a hard time, I chose this life. I chose to date him, knowing full well that with him nothing is certain. Every time I have to put him on a plane, I am not sure exactly when I will see him again. At any moment, he may need to up and leave for any amount of time. There is a chance that some day he could be sent to Iraq or some less dangerous place and never come back. Now with him joining the security forces, and having a higher deployment rate, and with me still not getting more than two months worth of time with him since we meet. I still chose to stay right here, no matter how tough the times get, it is worth it to have you, no matter how long or short that amount of time is.
Now he will be deploying to the Middle East just before the time we were planning on getting married. I knew that I wouldn't get the fairytale life that I imagined, but what I got was so much better. Even if all that I get is the short time we have had so far, I would never regret for a second the decision that I made. He has taught me to hang on to the good things in life, to not take for granted the time that we have together. We may not have had much time together, but we haven't wasted it with things that just fill time. We have spent our time together talking, and doing things together. We are in the habit of taking walks together, and making dinner together. I have very happy memories of every moment that we have spent together.
I miss him so much, and he is still Stateside, I think that most of it is just his sudden departure. We have spent our entire relationship on opposite coasts; I met him just after he returned from a deployment. We would spend an insane amount of time on the phone, wondering when we were going to meet in person. After figuring out how perfect we were for each other, we have been trying to find a way to live in the same area. Finally I got to help him move out here to the beautiful West Coast, where he is from. That is when I got hit in the face with what I had got myself into; one day I am helping him move in, and the next I am helping him pack to leave (it is one thing to have him need to suddenly leave when all that you do is talk on the phone, he can always still talk; it is another when you finally get time to spend with him and he is leaving).
I know that there are tougher times ahead, and I use every opportunity that I have to strengthen our relationship, and give us the tools that we will need to see it through. To all of you who have someone to go do something with every Friday and Saturday night; don’t take what you have for granted. There are plenty of us who would give so much to be able to see our special someone just for an hour each week, heck, I will settle for five minutes. I just want to be able to see his face, to look deep into those beautiful eyes and tell him that I love him. I love you baby, so much, and I miss you like crazy. I will be right here waiting for you to get home, and I promise that I will be fine while you are gone. I will always find a way to make it through.
To all of you military men out there, thank you from all of us, and don’t think for a second that your sacrifice has gone unnoticed. There are plenty of us here who love you, pray for you, and support you no matter what.
-JT
PS: Hey handsome, I miss you, I spend so much of my day thinking about you and looking forward to when you will finally be here. I just wanted you to know how much I love you, and that there is nothing I wouldn’t do to keep us strong. I will plan the wedding all by myself, say screw the big wedding and get hitched by the AF Chaplin, whatever it takes. I am all yours forever, I will spend the rest of my life pampering you and trying to show you how much I love you. Always dreaming of you, your baby always.
I am not one of the Americans who can quickly forget what happened on that day, or will question why we are in Iraq. Someone with a lot more information than I have made that decision, and sometimes the best defensive is a good offence.
I don't feel that all because someone chose to make a sacrifice to protect their country, they should be denied a life. As I told him, and I am now telling every military man who questions why they are dragging someone they love through a hard time, I chose this life. I chose to date him, knowing full well that with him nothing is certain. Every time I have to put him on a plane, I am not sure exactly when I will see him again. At any moment, he may need to up and leave for any amount of time. There is a chance that some day he could be sent to Iraq or some less dangerous place and never come back. Now with him joining the security forces, and having a higher deployment rate, and with me still not getting more than two months worth of time with him since we meet. I still chose to stay right here, no matter how tough the times get, it is worth it to have you, no matter how long or short that amount of time is.
Now he will be deploying to the Middle East just before the time we were planning on getting married. I knew that I wouldn't get the fairytale life that I imagined, but what I got was so much better. Even if all that I get is the short time we have had so far, I would never regret for a second the decision that I made. He has taught me to hang on to the good things in life, to not take for granted the time that we have together. We may not have had much time together, but we haven't wasted it with things that just fill time. We have spent our time together talking, and doing things together. We are in the habit of taking walks together, and making dinner together. I have very happy memories of every moment that we have spent together.
I miss him so much, and he is still Stateside, I think that most of it is just his sudden departure. We have spent our entire relationship on opposite coasts; I met him just after he returned from a deployment. We would spend an insane amount of time on the phone, wondering when we were going to meet in person. After figuring out how perfect we were for each other, we have been trying to find a way to live in the same area. Finally I got to help him move out here to the beautiful West Coast, where he is from. That is when I got hit in the face with what I had got myself into; one day I am helping him move in, and the next I am helping him pack to leave (it is one thing to have him need to suddenly leave when all that you do is talk on the phone, he can always still talk; it is another when you finally get time to spend with him and he is leaving).
I know that there are tougher times ahead, and I use every opportunity that I have to strengthen our relationship, and give us the tools that we will need to see it through. To all of you who have someone to go do something with every Friday and Saturday night; don’t take what you have for granted. There are plenty of us who would give so much to be able to see our special someone just for an hour each week, heck, I will settle for five minutes. I just want to be able to see his face, to look deep into those beautiful eyes and tell him that I love him. I love you baby, so much, and I miss you like crazy. I will be right here waiting for you to get home, and I promise that I will be fine while you are gone. I will always find a way to make it through.
To all of you military men out there, thank you from all of us, and don’t think for a second that your sacrifice has gone unnoticed. There are plenty of us here who love you, pray for you, and support you no matter what.
-JT
PS: Hey handsome, I miss you, I spend so much of my day thinking about you and looking forward to when you will finally be here. I just wanted you to know how much I love you, and that there is nothing I wouldn’t do to keep us strong. I will plan the wedding all by myself, say screw the big wedding and get hitched by the AF Chaplin, whatever it takes. I am all yours forever, I will spend the rest of my life pampering you and trying to show you how much I love you. Always dreaming of you, your baby always.
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